Thursday, March 24, 2005
HistrionicPeople with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention. They also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative.
Huh. That doesn't sound like anyone *I* know... err..
Now find out what's wrong with you!
"you, on the other hand, will be so much better than ok"
Sometimes things are hard to say. Sometimes they are just hard. But sometimes just barreling through it makes you feel a little better. Or at least makes you feel like you CAN feel a little better. That maybe, someday, things will be better.
I want this small sense of clarity, or ok-ness to last... just a little bit longer.
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
So, I'm doing this thing again where I get behind in my posting and I feel the need to update on past things before I start with current thoughts, and then I just never catch up. What's the point really? Anyway, I do have older stuff I want to say, but right now I really want just grin REALLY big. *GRIN!*
I spend a lot of time looking at my current situation and trying to figure out how it will change and what will come next. When will I learn that as soon as you start doing that, something COMPLETELY unexpected comes along?
Anyway, it's far too soon to tell, and poor heartbroken me is leery about getting her hopes up, but I do have a good feeling about all this randomness that has sprung up this week. If nothing else it will snap me back into reality and remind me just how many options I have.
So there's that. I have that.
Friday, March 18, 2005
I used to have this love hate relationship with March because there was just so much basketball... then nothing. Waiting until October was so hard. But now that my inner baseball fan has resurfaced I don't feel that way at all. Bring on the Thirsty Thursdays and 10 c'clock Angels games!And it's a good thing... especially the way most of the big ten looks hellbent on ending the tourney early.
In other news:
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
Make your decision and don't you dare think twicego with your instincts along with some bad advice
this didn't turn out the way I thought it would at all
you blame me but some of this is still your fault
-Reliant K, Which To Bury; Us Or The Hatchet
I'm already on wine probation, but I might need to be on music probation soon too. But did you ever see a better song title?
Also, I made my NCAA tourney picks today. It's kind of an embarassment this year, but I have a firm philosphy that has gotten me by the last several years... well, maybe more of a medical condition than philosphy, but I am incapable of NOT picking big ten teams and I incapable of NOT picking MSU to win. *sigh* Well, the first 2 rounds will be fun.
Monday, March 14, 2005
This may seem like a non-post, but it's not. It's very real. Dead Solid tossed a couple cds my way at the Quarter Bounce tourney and frankly it's like bad-ass music overload. I'm still wading through it. Here are some choice lyrics that stuck this evening. Goodness knows I saw it coming
Or at least I'll claim I did
But in truth I'm lost for words
What have I done it's too late for that
What have I become truth is nothing yet
A simple mistake starts the hardest time
I promise I'll do anything you ask...this time
-Snow Patrol, Chocolate
And these are even better. This song made my heart skip a beat. Only things that race through my head everyday.
I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide
-Howie Day, Collide
You know ow unusual it is for me to be ambiguous... I'd elaborate, but as usual, I fear I've caused enough trouble already this week.
Saturday, March 12, 2005
So, I needed a vacation. Is that so wrong?Mini recap from where we left off:
I had an super Dreamgirls night out with Wysocki and Deb. Also, I have some nice pictures of Andy dancing at bdubs. And Wysocki and I got our Tupac on, so all is right with the world.
We all met "Dead Solid" at the combined Quarter Bounce Regional Finals/my "didn't get the job" celebration. That was a good time. As you are undoubtedly aware, everyone I actually hang out with on a day to day basis is a internet superstar in their own little way. Being such a superstar myself I occasionally get emails from strangers who enjoy my graveyard of a webpage, or find we have something in common. I generally do not "meet" these people, but was pleased to make an exception out of Jon. I had good fun hanging out with him and his buddies, even after my usual gang bailed like the bunch of wussies they are.
Um, let's see... Oh! I got a nasty cold before I ever posted about any of that, and just haven't gotten back in the swing of things. Colds suck. But it did give me an excuse to rent some movies. Here are some notes:
Hero: Swell. Sure. Whatever. Read also: SO MUCH HYPE. I liked it. I was just underwhelmed I guess. I had been told it was so much prettier than House of Flying Daggers by someone who will now be referred to as Liar McLiarpants, because... ARE YOU KIDDING ME!? HOFD was far more visually stimulating. Don't get me wrong, Hero is good and I liked it... but it was less than I expected.
The Right Stuff: As a child growing up with HBO, I saw this movie about 7 million times in 10 minutes increments. I was like 8 at the time, so I had no real appreciation for the flick, I'm sure. But it caught my eye as I was wandering through blockbuster. This may come as a huge surprise to you, but I have grown quite fond of all things space, and science, and astronaut, and rocket, and... you get the idea. So I rented it, and give it two solid thumbs up. Also, for the one or two of you that know and care, Dennis Quaid has an exceptional fake-out non-jip line. It was awesome.
Ok, that got me through mid-last week and is enough for now. Maybe I'll be inspired later.
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
I apologize. I really do. Before I found the time or energy to post about that weekend's adventures I found myself bedridden with a nasty cold.
I'm still recovering, but need my sleep so this is all you get. Also, I may be fleeing the state this weekend, so this may be all you get until Monday. I'm sorry.
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