Wednesday, October 31, 2001
"inevitably there comes a day that isn't as bad as the day before."
"and until then?"
"well, dear, that's what prescription medication is for."
(grams to mrs. leary -DC)
movie title of the day:
The Fearless Vampire Killers or: Pardon Me, but Your Teeth Are in My Neck
so i was kidding about being randy quaid for halloween. that was my sister's idea and i was jealous. i think i did alright though. i'll let you guess who i was instead. (click the hint image below to see the full pic)
so what are you guys going to be for halloween? i'm going to be randy quaid.
so, it looks like i'm not dying of colon cancer. the doctor wasn't especially worried about my physical well-being. i'm going back next week to have some routine tests done just because i haven't had a good check-up in years and years, but she thinks i'm just fine.
interestingly enough, the only thing the doctor was concerned about was my lack of appetite, lack of energy, and overall feelings of anxiety and depression. she wondered if maybe i thought i might like some medication... (brian, is there room in the cuckoo's nest?)
random things:
***
i f*cking hate hypocrites. (pardon my language) if you expect me to bust my ass for you, hold up your end of the bargain. and while we're on the subject, you power-trippin' little b*tch (i'm so sorry... really) you know WHY i wouldn't come to you and tell you what/WHO the problem is? because when i do you turn around and tell that person horribly exaggerated versions of what i say. i don't know who the hell you think you are or what the f*ck you did to get where you are... but if the time i have put in for this company isn't enough for you and you expect me to prove myself at every turn... don't expect me to respect you for who you are and what you've done. SHOW me, you mother %^&*ing bastard!
***
i have had a rough time of it lately, but for now i know things are going to be alright. it's that time of year. tonight while driving home i noticed stars... a sight not often seen around here. i leaned out my window to get a better look and gasped with joy when i spotted orion high above me. i can't really explain it, but orion and i are friends... what more would you expect from someone who names subdivisions things like twinkleville then proposes aliens live there? anyway, as long as i can remember i have talked to orion. it's comforting. it's like he watches over me. whatever is in store for me over the next couple months... at least i know i'm not alone.
***
tonight is devil's night... one of the coolest pseudo-holidays. i think it's a full moon too. even cooler. except i have one thing to say: whoever threw those eggs inside my dad's car when i borrowed it to go to my boyfriend's house 8 years ago really sucks. it's not enough to just egg the outside of someone's car? i mean, maybe i was the d'mass for leaving the window down a crack... (who knew you could fit an egg through a one inch opening?) anyway, i didn't even find the yuck until i left at like 2am. i did my best to clean it up, but the car stunk for weeks. i woke my dad up in tears at like 2:30 or so in the morning when i got home. he was actually pretty cool about it. anyway, whoever did that... you're mean.
***
so, i have a question: does the moon look the same no matter where you are on earth? i mean, like does the whole full moon, new moon, waning, waxing, whatnot happen at the same time of the month etc. all over... or will china see some other kind of moon tonight? i bet i could figure it out if i put a little thought into it... but i figured it would be easier to ask you guys then have no one reply... although, sometimes i ask really random questions then brian spends the next 30 minutes excitedly telling me how radios work. so, you never know.
***
hmmm... let's see. any more random things? maybe not right now. i think this is ample.
Tuesday, October 30, 2001
so yesterday i had such a bad day at work i was ready to pack my things and move back into my mother's basement in michigan. it was so so terrible. fortunately a well placed phone call to my favorite goblin was quick to cheer me up. (did you know he was going as quasimodo for halloween?) and speaking of halloween, one of brian's alter ego's sent one of mine the funniest halloween card ever.
so two thumbs up for bri for taking my horrible day and ending it with a smile.
Monday, October 29, 2001
ugh. do you know how long it's been since i've had an actual medical doctor's appointment for something other than my various neuroses?
i hate doctors. they're scary. i'm scared.
one shining ray of light:
as i was digging through my new health insurance info i was certain i was never going to find a 'network' doctor, my visit wouldn't be covered, and it would cost a million dollars. fortunately i found a doctor only about a mile away from my apartment who takes my insurance and will submit my claim for me so i won't have to pay a dime... (yet. who knows how that will work out.)
i have this problem with uncertainties though. boy do they stress me out. for example: i'm a wreck about this spring. i still don't know what state i'll be in, let alone where i'll be living/working, etc. it's so out of my hands and i shouldn't even worry about it... but i do. well, it's the same way with this. i could have bleeding stomach ulcers or colon cancer... or more likely nothing is wrong with me at all. but for some reason my brain likes to sit here and plan for my death... because i just don't know.
i wonder if there is a cure for scared?
turns out aside from the tumor i am convinced i have in my ear, i also have some sort of gastrointestinal bleeding. that can't be a good sign can it? i think i might be dying... how sad.
at least i don't have shingles.
Sunday, October 28, 2001
if you need me i'll be drunk of classic horror movies for the next few days. have you seen your teevee listings? yeah for halloween!
Saturday, October 27, 2001
now, i think jimmy fallon and tina fey are the best thing to happen to the weekend update since sliced bread, but i sure miss jimmy's guest appearances on the 'date (not as effective as "the cot"). his little singin'/guitar impersonations were fan-freakin-tastic... although his alanis morrisette is only ever so slightly less obnoxious than that of his cousin, my dear friend and personal favorite comedian, brian vegas.
(note: yes, sometimes i read my updates and think... no one is going to have any idea what the hell i'm babbling about.)
tsk tsk tsk
it's like the state of michigan is kryptonite for iowa. sucks to be them (us? sheesh). at least that damn badger got put in his place.
anyway, yeah for snl halloween special.
and once again, yeah for cold!
Friday, October 26, 2001
*sigh*
aside from feeling like a doormat, a work horse, and having the almost uncontrollable urge to burst into tears, i suppose everything is just dandy.
at least it's cold.
Thursday, October 25, 2001
k, everyone:
i'm desperate. i have been sporadically working on a design for a site i have been paying for since like january and never did anything with. check this draft out and let me know what you think. i am most unhappy with the links on the right. the orange needs to go... maybe the links need a different color, or arrangement. something. help me!
http://www.galactichero.net/blog.php
Wednesday, October 24, 2001
so i have done everything on my to do list except the one thing i PROMISED myself, and my car, that i would do. i MUST get an oil change tomorrow. ok, maybe friday...
Tuesday, October 23, 2001
wow. i got the link to this personality disorder test from mike who seems pretty normal based on his results. i, on the other hand, am clearly a nut case, reguardless of how often brian tells me i'm normal.
| Disorder | Rating |
| Paranoid: | Low |
| Schizoid: | Low |
| Schizotypal: | High |
| Antisocial: | High |
| Borderline: | Low |
| Histrionic: | High |
| Narcissistic: | Moderate |
| Avoidant: | Moderate |
| Dependent: | High |
| Obsessive-Compulsive: | Moderate |
i knew i was a bit nutty, but that's a few more 'highs' and a few too many 'lows' for my peace of mind. madame victoria, here i come...
hahaha
a day that will live in infamy
SP APARTMENT COMPLEX ANTHRAX SCARE!
yes, folks. the above are pictures of my compex's mail kiosk blocked off by police (or actually fire) tape. the whole complex was blocked off earlier with one end filled with emergency vehicles. by the time i got down there with the cam only a cop car or two remained. according to our inside scoop sources someone received a package this evening and upon opening a 'suspiscious white powder' poofed out of the box.
how very exciting.
(note: the mailbox in the bottom pic with the anthrax spores pouring out of it is mine.
FYI: the sugar cookie frosting theme of the day is 'princess leia regal celebration cookies'.
previous cookies of the day were:
martha stewart-esque cookies
gooooogley cookies
galactic robot cookies
and kilimanjaro safari cookies
stay tuned for future sugar cookie frosting themes.
again let me tell you that smallville is like my favorite thing on the planet.
to do:
get oil change
Monday, October 22, 2001
congratulations, mr. salt and mrs. pepper! it's a cinnamon!
random things:
you know it is winter in florida when you decide you can wear khaki pants to work instead of shorts. also, when you get out of work on sunday (6:30pm) it is completely dark out.
on my way home from work (assuming it is dark out, i pass by a little place i like to call 'twinkleville' aliens live there.
i can tell if i'm making good time on my home from work based on what david gray song is playing on my cd player.
the only thing worth getting up early for on a day off is to overnight homemade cookies to your best friend.
invader zim is my cartoon of the moment.
i need to get an oil change, but i am also up for suggestions on what to do with my too-many-days-off-in-a-row.
so nickelodeon and disney need to just cooperate and not show doug and disney's doug at the same time. how am i supposed to watch them both? (ok, yes, i taped one. what? i love doug!)
shut up! i love it! and i am much happier with my inner robot than some people. oh, the irony!
SPAMTHRAX — CONTRACTING ANTHRAX VIA EMAIL
Also Information on Net Evacuation, Bayer's Production of e-Cipro
(link via that other genius)
Saturday, October 20, 2001
Dear Stephanie,We are pleased to notify you that your application for admission to The University of Iowa has been approved. You have been admitted to the College of Liberal Arts and Sciences for the 2002 spring session. On behalf of the faculty and staff, congratulations and welcome!
Friday, October 19, 2001
You have a good imagination, and often exhibit sensitivity to others.
At times, you may tend to be overly sensitive to criticism. You can be excessively cautious or narrow in your outlook unless you receive the right kind of encouragement.
You have so many interests that you may have trouble deciding which ones to pursue. This can become a problem when you allow yourself to be overly influenced by other people's opinions.
The general flexibility of your character is a useful attribute. At certain times in your life, you may have romantic conflicts and difficulty maintaining friendships. You will overcome these problems after a little introspection.
There may be times in your life when you give in to feelings of sadness or depression.
You are naturally charming and inclined to be flirtatious.
There are inconsistencies in your energy level, possibly triggered by external factors or emotional changes.
You may suffer from low energy, allergies, or some kind of chronic health problem.
You are likely to make many changes in the direction of your life. This may be based on interruptions due to health problems, or it may be that you just have trouble focusing your energy.
No matter what other factors influence your personality, there is an underlying sense of practicality that you can draw on if you wish.
***
does that sound like me? i tried an online palm reading thang. it was hard to describe my incredibly unique palm with their little check boxes, but i think it came out pretty accurate.
10 things about me:
i am just going through the motions.
i have a monsters inc. back pack.
if i could meet one person dead or alive it would be walt disney.
i have a weak and disrupted life line.
i want this for 'boxing day'. (FYI: it's 5 bucks cheaper in the parks)
i am afraid. of the dark, of failure, of success, of loneliness, of animatronic dinosaurs and aliens.
my best friend is magical.
i'm a merchandizing genius.
sometimes i think i'm the coolest person on the planet.
sometimes i don't think i'm cool enough to come up with 10 interesting things about myself.
Wednesday, October 17, 2001
you know, i think if all of my regular readers (you know who you are) logged on to paypal.com and donated 5 or 10 bucks to me, i would be WELL on my way to owning a gameboy advance. how 'bout it, guys? what do ya think?
so, i think i fell asleep before 8pm last night. wow. i was pretty tired! that also means i was able to wake up nice and early this morning (though when i did wake up i made the decision to go back to sleep for an hour or two).
now as a general rule of thumb, i do NOT go to bed before midnight. ever. but i didn't really have a choice last night. i just kind of fell asleep on the couch watching TV. i then woke up about midnight and 'migrated' to bed.
the real tragedy in all this though is that i missed the season premeire of smallville. did anyone see it? i was so looking forward to it.
(side note: check out the smallville ledger. it's really neat... set up like a small town newspaper. it's got tons of info (like links to the smallville high school newspaper, and the luthorcorp. website. it even has classifieds that are hilarious.) so it looks like maybe i'll recover from missing the first episode.)
Tuesday, October 16, 2001
i made it back to florida safe and sound... even if i had to pay an arm and a leg for a cab when i got here. i got to run like a mile through the detroit airport to catch my connection since my first flight left at least half an hour late.
also during the flight i saw two other planes off in the distance. i've never done that before.
anything else exciting to share at this time? no. i don't think so. but i need a nap like nobody's business.
do you like how i tricked you with that whole, 'i'm going home for a week. don't miss me too much,' nonsense then proceeded to post like twice a day every day since i left for MI? that was pretty funny of me, don't ya think?
so now i have to drag myself back to florida. i'm not especially looking forward to it.
right now my toes are so cold i can just barely stand it. sososososo cold. and the tips of my fingers and especially the tip of my nose. i could throw on a sweatshirt or some socks but i prefer to cherish the sensation. it's not one i will feel again soon.
Monday, October 15, 2001
i'm sure i've been to the spark before but i never really knew anyone else who had so i couldn't really see many compatibilities. i just went again though and took the test and found out some interesting things.
a) i am a Guru: ( Submissive Extroverted Abstract Feeler )
You are a GURU (SEAF)--kind, knowing, giving. Like Buddha of old, you can be a persuasive speaker, and you use your creative talents to further the objectives of your heart instead of your mind. But be careful that your friends don't take advantage of your relaxed nature, that’s what happened to Jesus.
Above all, you like going with the flow. And there is probably nothing in the world you haven’t smoked. That’s cool. Oh yeah, you like to talk a lot. That's cool, too. Whatever.
b) i am 100% compatible with 'the mike'.
c) i have changed a lot since last year when i was a 'performer'. i'm still an Extroverted Abstract Feeler but now i am Submissive when i used to be Dominant.
now what would be really cool is if you guys all were feeling kind of bored and wanted to procrastinate a little you could pop over there and take their quick little test, then when you get to the compatibilities page you can just pop my e-mail address (sweitze2ATpilot.msu.edu) in there and see how we match up. wouldn't that be fun?
k, go do it now.
(also, brian: if i were a guy i'd be 30% bastard... so i think you have me beat. i guess i'll have to take the bitch test to be more gender fair.)
Sunday, October 14, 2001
this was posted using bloggerbot. how freakin' cool!
i saw serendipity tonight. it was good in that sickeningly depressing romantic comedy sort of way. seriously, don't you think movies like that, even songs... just kind of set people up to be disappointed? i mean, they are amazing and romantic stories... and we all long for that, i think. but even when we do find someone special... what are the chances it will be a movie-worthy story?
and what the heck has become of me? i used to be the most insanely optimistic and idealistic person in the world. it depresses me that i have started to become cynical and realistic -if not pessimistic- in my 'old' age.
i'm not invisible to boys!
it turns out boys CAN see me, and they'll even buy me drinks... but only if they are trying to get me to help them hook up with my friends. whatever. i'm not complaining about free drinks.
i guess i've never been invisible to boys... i mean a large preponderance of my friends are usually guys. they can see me... they just want to BE with my friends.
Saturday, October 13, 2001
it was a valiant effort, but the deal was you get football and we get basketball. i hope you don't think this means you get basketball...
it's official! college basketball season has started. the spartans are sporting a handful of freshman, and only one senior (who was red-shirted as a freshman so basically we'll lose no one after this year). no worries though, as the izzone shirts read this year: 'we don't rebuild, we reload'.
on a side note: andre hutson has been missing. he was drafted by the bucks but then suddenly was no where to be found on nba.com or various rosters. the good news is, we found dre. the 'bad' news is... he's in italy. the rest of the good news is that when he comes back he'll be fluent in italian like kobe. ha!
and in case i didn't make it clear:
BASKETBALL SEASON HAS STARTED!!!!!!!!!
Friday, October 12, 2001
deep down inside i think we all know we rock and it usually goes without saying that our friends love us and think great things of us. sometimes reminding ourselves of that isn't reassurance enough though. sometimes someone says just the right thing at just the right time and, call me a sap, but it can take about all i can do to keep from bursting into tears! sometimes it sure feels good to actually be told you're special.
especially when it comes from someone you think the world of. if someone so amazing thinks i kick ass... who the heck cares what anyone else thinks? it must be true!
Thursday, October 11, 2001
'oh, it's like an inch think, but who gives a shit. it's pie!'
-dad
maybe i'll tell some stories later but right now i think i have 'i-cant-believe-its-not-pie' food poisoning. blech! it went so much better last year!
i would just like to point out that this weekend marks the one year anniversary of the first time i 'met' the mike (online, that is). you can see the immediate effect i had on his otherwise boring posts. after one evening of chatting away, he was already beginning to accept his inner rockstar.
remember that?
hehehe
Wednesday, October 10, 2001
oh, and nikki:
jimmy added comments.
so i made it! i'm alive!
once i made it to detroit i knew i was safe. the little rubberband propelled glider i took to lansing wouldn't have put a dent in any building so there would be no sense in hijacking it.
anyway, more stories later... but the season premieres of DC and felicity are on!
Tuesday, October 09, 2001
so tomorrow morning i am flying home to michigan for a long weekend visit. hopefully the spartans will beat the hawkeyes and with all of my flying around, hopefully i'll return safely to sunny florida next week.
until then i love you guys and maybe i'll even update while i'm gone. (you know i will.)
Monday, October 08, 2001
myquil gives me a swetay shaky feeling . and instead of proofreading this post and checxking the spelling befor ei publish it, i think i'll leave it as is so you can appreciate my drugged up state. also, you should know i can't swallow and my rommates and i think we all have anthrax. hillary is threatening to make out with people in her dreams to get them sick too. i'm not even sure if i'm making sentences anymore because the room is a litlle spinny. maybe i shouldn't take this stuff on an empthuy stomach anymore. it's 'surprisingly potent'.
i'd leike to dedicate this post to my dear friend, the kinf og the world. yes, the kinf og the world.
fantastic find!
that site is so old school BBS! oh the memories! you've got to create an account and check out the chat and stuff. plus they have a fun space invaders game in case you need a break from snood.
(side note 1: i can imagine you all now: half of my readers thinking wtf is this? the other half knowing exactly where i'm coming from cuz they ran a BBS out of their basement.)
(side note 2: snood as a gameboy advance game? shut up!)
'400 what? dollars? i'm sorry, i don't think i understood what you said. you meant 400 quarters right? nickels? pennies!'
that's crazy talk. imagine if i didn't get a discount. for that price Mickey better hand deliver my car for me...
but here's some things that don't suck:
i got out of work! yea for days off!
now i have time to pack for my trip
i got to see disney's doug on tv
chicken pot pie 5 minutes and 3 seconds from now
i don't feel too sick
Sunday, October 07, 2001
5 things that don't suck:
toy story bandaid on my knee
microwave s'mores
calling my dad
my friends -even if they're all far away
cherry 7up
thank god i didn't decide to make that a top ten list or something. that would have taken me all night. but i've been told things aren't as bad as they seem so i figured i should try to be more positive. that is generally my nature afterall.
someone is out to get me.
my poor little car is sitting lifeless in the parking lot as i type.
*cry*
Saturday, October 06, 2001
further proof that i can't do anything right:
i got pulled over for the second time this week tonight. go me. this guy was king of a dick, and while last time i fully deserved to get pulled over, this time was so uncalled for. last time i got all sobby, and not entirely to get out of the ticket. it was just one of those days. it hasn't been hard to get me to cry lately. this time though the guy says i was going 65-70 in a 55 depending on the traffic. i guess he'd been tailing me for awhile. but BULLSHIT. i had my cruise set at 60 and i firmly told him that. he asked how my record was blah blah blah then told me to watch my speed and be on my way. i think he realized he was exaggerating. but it was nice that he didn't make me cry. because i hate it when people make me cry.
interesting side note:
men in authority positions make me cry all the time. well, not all the time. but i'd say 2-3 times a year. girls don't make me cry. maybe i just know crying wouldn't work as well on girls.
either way, if you ever see me cry (and it's not your fault) consider youself lucky because crying in front of people is just something i would rather die than do. that whole vulnerability thing i guess.
is Verner's just a midwest thing and i didn't know it?
the reason i ask is because i'm sick. well, i'm not techinically sick yet, but i definitely will be when i wake up tomorrow morning. i felt it creeping up on me all day. these are my precold symptoms:
i woke up with a funny feeling in the back of my throught/nose (that post-nasal drip area)
instead of feeling a little sleepy by the end of my closing shift my alertness actually seemed to have a half life of about 3 hours and just kept dropping lower and lower
i started to feel a little achy... my teeth feel achy before i get a cold -my shoulders too
my glands are a bit tender if not swollen
i stocked up on the necessary goodies (including buzz lightyear shaped chicken noodle soup) but i couldn't find Verner's ginger ale anywhere. i think i settled for schweppe's.
now all there is left is the obligatory plea for everyone to feel sorry for me. so, get to it...
"seems these days i don't feel anything, unless it cuts me right down to the bone" -dg
Friday, October 05, 2001
StepheeJoy: you were more fun before you got back together with erin :)
MylesDGrant: how so?
StepheeJoy: you're never around anymore and you don't even update as much :) i miss you
MylesDGrant: well i'm sorry you feel that way cuz this is Erin
i really love going to the movies. it doesn't really matter what it is. i'm pretty easily amused. there are a ton of movies i want to see, but the... maybe 4? 5? (that's pushing it) friends i have down here are always busy. how long do you think it will be before i suck it up and start going to the movies by myself?
i could justify it if i lived in a tiny town with an ancient one screen movie theater that just showed second run movies, and they had matinees for like a buck. and you could go in the middle of the afternoon (or any time at all really) and you'd be the only one there. and the old man who owned the theater would know me by name and give me free popcorn.
maybe if i stopped living in the movies and snapped in to reality i wouldn't be so disappointed all the time.
here are a bunch of quizzes. they are mostly actual trivia quizzes and not soul searching personal quizzes, so that's nice for a change. and they certainly are a good way to waste a little time!
here is where the majority of my knowlege lies:
space: the final frontier (10/10)
grammar (9/10 - who knew?)
watch your language! (7/8)
the animal kingdom (14/15)
pets - gone wild! (8/9)
wow. i had been looking for some arial shots of the former location of the twin towers. clearly huge huge damage was done during those attacks, but never having even seen the towers or area in person it was nearly impossible to really grasp the full scope of the damage. i saw tons of pictures on tv... but seeing it like that, all boxed up neatly in a 19 inch tv screen... you just don't see the big picture.
looking at the comparison pictures you can see the long dark shadows of the towers. those shadows just aren't there anymore.
Thursday, October 04, 2001
"our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate; our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond all measure."
-marianne williamson
i love that quote. i want to be powerful beyond all measure. i'd settle for a little control over my own life though...
it occurs to me that being blessed with special gifts doesn't necessarily make up for the fact that you lack the basic tools needed to succeed. i've built up all this anxiety within myself. i look in the mirror and only see wasted potential. gifts bestowed upon someone with a complete inability to harness them. through tests, and experiences, and feedback i've convinced myself that i am special. i am different. i hold a certain amount of creativity. genius. brilliance.
am i afraid of those things? i don't know that the quote above holds true for me. am afraid of realizing my potential? or i am afraid of realizing i am less than i hope to be. realizing i am not blessed with special gifts. i am not brilliant. i am not creative. i am not unique.
i am ordinary.
ok, i'm starting to wonder if maybe a few days off in a row is really a good thing. i mean, this page certainly isn't used to this kind of attention... and i wouldn't want my readers to grow to expect this all the time.
the good news though is that i have tomorrow off as well, and that smallville starts in like two weeks. ok, that two weeks isn't great news because i'm impatient. but how can that show not be good?
i think i've made a new friend. and he has good taste in music too.
please, people, help me out. i just got a new CD case and while filling it with my cd collection i was forced to face the fact that my music sucks. it really does.
make me cds and i'll love you forever!
i have a confession to make.
when there's nothing good on nickelodeon, my new favorite show is elimidate. i can't wait for the season premiere of elimidate deluxe.
i can't make up my mind between cartoons and trash tv. *sigh*
well, yea for people who leave me comments via my little 'discuss' link below each post. even tiney little threads put a smile on my face. i'm all about interactivity. if i were really 3l33t3 this page would be way more interactive, but i'm not.
it turns out that i'm not a lot of things.
Wednesday, October 03, 2001
please, god, don't let me end up one of those thirty something women in dead end jobs with bad outdated haircuts and no hope of ever finding a good guy. i hate being alone. i'm not so bad... right? i can't be. i'd like to think there is nothing fundamentally unlovable about me. is there? what am i doing wrong? i can't be a super model. i can't just have an exotic accent or a perfect body. i can't catch anybody's eye and i can't seem to charm anyone either. i can only be myself, and i used to think that was good enough.
but if it were good enough then why have i been so so so all alone for the last two years? any encounters with the opposite sex were few and far between... and most i'd just as soon forget. (if you're reading this then i don't mean you, silly) if being myself is good enough, why won't guys even look at me, let alone return a flirty smile across the bar? if being myself were enough, why do i have so many guy friends but only like 2 guys have asked me out in the last 100 million years? it's not like i want to tie some poor unsuspecting guy down and marry him. hell no. but a date would sure be nice. or a kiss... can't i just have one more kiss before i turn into an old maid?
i know what you're thinking. stephanie, you're fine. you're young. someday your prince charming will come marching along and he'll be so enamored with you. it'll be great. yea for fairytales. you're adorable and you're smart and you're funny. well, go tell it to someone else. where the hell has it gotten me? lonelier and more depressed every day?
i could use a hug in the worst way.
i'm so tired of being all alone.
there was a bird in the nest, and the nest on the branch, and a branch on the tree, and the tree's in the bog, and the green grass grows all around, all around. and the green grass grows all around.
drink. drank. drunk.
i'll have you know that slick piano player from Bad Axe, MI said, 'i'm glad there's some michiganders out there, but we don't play college songs' then he banked my FIVE BUCKS. but later when he came on stage and a vista-wayan shouted 'go blue!' and tried to get him to play the UofM fight song he said 'go blue!? GO SPARTANS!' the room was relatively quiet so my hootin' and hollerin' was not overlooked. yea for lack of inhibition due to really limited alcohol intake. yea for being a 'two can sam'. yea for orange pants. yea for boys with spikey hair smiling at me.
yea for having three days off in a row! go me!
Tuesday, October 02, 2001
did you know the only company in the country that manufactures a vaccine for anthrax is in lansing, mi? neither did i. maybe i should move back home...
my little sister just made the Lansing Community College cheerleading squad. this is hilarious because she has never cheered before (does the dance team in HS count?) and because it's a community college. that in itself is funny enough for me.
to really appreciate all of this there are two things you should know about my sister.
A) she has two tattoos and AMPLE piercings.
B) her name is oliver.
Monday, October 01, 2001
finally! something other than just the trailers we've been seeing for nearly two years! nov. 2 can not come soon enough.
i'm going home! i finally got my flight all squared away and i'm going home next week. it's perfect. it's MSU's homecoming so i'll be in town to see them beat Iowa and i'll get to see kimmie and the rest of my dreamgirls (new pics here) and the fam... and of course we can't forget 'fake baba'! i need a break from hell, i mean, florida so so so badly.
have i mentioned i'm excited about this? ok, good.
i just wanted to state for the record that it is pleasantly delightful outside right now. not humid. not even WARM! nice and cool. fantastic. in fact i was greeted with warm air when i walked into my apartment, so it is noticeably below 76 degrees outside right now. maybe florida isn't so bad after all.
HA! (had ya goin' there for a second, didn't i?) it is nice out though.
boo! = getting pulled over
yea! = wimpering your way out of it
boo! = working til midnight
yea! = leaving a job well done behind
boo! = just missing friends online
yea! = finding that they updated their webpages
boo! = having your answering machine move out
yea! = having your own room again
boo! = having to work tomorrow
yea! = having 3 days off in a row later
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